"Some women choose to follow men, and some women choose to follow their dreams. If you’re wondering which way to go, remember that your career will never wake up and tell you that it doesn’t love you anymore."

- Lady Gaga


I’m still not sure about shutting my tumblr down. Like I said, it’s something I might do. I don’t know though. I guess I could do something else with this. Like start over.

I don’t know what I want or what’s true anymore. Things have been tumbling down in the career department and I think I need to immerse myself in things that are related to my career and surround myself with people that are on the same path as myself. It’s that fake it ‘til you become it kind of thing.

Whichever way, my career is really at stake and I cannot let it go before it’s even properly started.

I have to really try, contrary of what I’ve been doing lately. 

Thank you aimeelouisee for the support ❤️


I might have to shut this thing down.
I’ve got things I need to figure out.



Just a few days ago I was thinking about how grateful I am that I can fall asleep wherever whenever. Now I’m finding it very difficult to fall asleep. I hope it’s only for tonight.
I hope that you aren’t a worrier either.
It would make me feel bad about being able to sleep carefreely instantly.



When people get too close I erase them out of my life. It’s like they never existed. Except of course they did. And I know it.
I can’t give out too much of myself.
No. Not without getting as much back as a I’m giving.



I was starting to think I’d forgotten how to feel. Then the tears came - that’s a good thing isn’t it?
I can’t blame anyone else for this. I needed to get close to the edge to understand how much this means to me.
The prospect of losing it all… I can’t even begin to explain.

Don’t be like this though. Let me comfort you.



I could have slept long enough if I’d wanted to. Now I’m sitting here feeling tired already. I know we’re going to spend a couple of hours talking in bed. I’ll probably do much of the talking myself. Can we at least go to bed a couple of hours earlier?